Public Schools vs. Private Schools
I felt disconnected from my teachers. I struggled in math and science, but my teachers passed me rather than helping me actually learn. I sat alone at lunch every day and acted like I wanted it that way. During breaks I sat in the hall and pretended to read my school books or do homework, as if I didn't want to be hanging out and having fun with friends. I was never invited to get-togethers or parties. Nobody talked to me before or after class. There were casual friendships that came and went, but few that were consistent until my friend Daneen went to school with me for a year. I didn't go to prom. At the end of my senior year there were no parties or festivities. I just disappeared. This was my experience with private high school.
I watched Lydia struggle with friendships in every private school she has been in. A child counselor once told me that in small schools like the ones she attended, there was usually one big clique. You were either in or out. Lydia strove to be in. She was gripped with anxiety every day on the way to school because she didn't know if she'd be left out or ridiculed that day. This year I finally switched her to a public school despite my fears of what I may be exposing her too. This has been the best school year of her life. Her grades are flawless despite the curriculum really challenging her. She's surrounded by friends who are like her and share her beliefs. They pray for each other. She goes to sleepovers and birthday parties and always has friends to sit beside her in classes and at lunch.
I will never put a child of mine in a private school again. I realize this is a personal decision based on a lot of factors and I wanted to put in my two cents. Thanks for listening.